Out My Window

How do I get anything done?

Today was probably the last nice day of autumn. After an early morning drizzle, the sky cleared and the sun came out. I came out, too — I had a bunch of work to do in the yard and inside my big garage in preparation for moving my RV.

But time and again I found myself stopping just to look out at the view from my shelf in what I’ve taken to calling “Malaga Heights.” The fall colors are peaking right about now with yellow aspens and willows and red and orange orchard trees. The sky was blue with white clouds, the Columbia River was that incredible blue it so often reflects from the sky.

Small View
Here’s the cropped view of what I saw today. Click it to see the full panorama. It’s big.

I remembered what a friend said to me the other day. She’d come to keep me company while I worked on my wiring and wound up helping me run wires from the circuit panel to the second floor. We worked until around 2 PM that day, then stopped for the day. We both wanted lunch and I needed to vote and visit Home Depot. While I took care of a few things inside to prep for my trip into town, my friend wandered down to the bench at Lookout Point. I met her there a while later. She was sitting on the bench, looking out over the view.

“I don’t know how you get anything done,” she said. “If I lived here, I’d be looking out at this view all day long.”

I get things done because I have to get things done. My home won’t be finished by itself.

But I can’t tell you how much I look forward to sitting up on my deck with a cup of coffee in the morning or a glass of wine in the afternoon — or maybe both — just taking in the view in front of me.

In the meantime, I’m enjoying these final days of autumn. The weather will turn cold on Tuesday and there’s a chance of snow on Thursday. At this point, I’m planning to spend the winter here, working on my home, spending time with my friends, and maybe even getting in a little skiing. It’s nice living in a place with four seasons and such beautiful scenery.

I’m so glad I’ve made this my home.

2 thoughts on “Out My Window

  1. Funny how things work out. The joys that you are experiencing now may never have been realized but for the actions of your ex-spousal unit. You’ve got this coming because you made it happen. Good for you!

    • It’s funny and it’s good but it’s also sad.

      I think the man I loved — before he lost his mind and became the delusional, greedy bastard he is now — would’ve really loved this place. It’s got the peaceful privacy we both enjoyed in Wickenburg and Howard Mesa, yet is close enough to town that he wouldn’t feel isolated. There’s so much to do and see here, and every convenience you might need. And with three daily flights from the local airport into Seattle, it’s easy to go anywhere in the world.

      That’s only part of the sad part. The other part is knowing that I could have changed my life so much sooner if I hadn’t spent so much time waiting for him to keep promises and start to live life. I loved him and I trusted him and I really thought he would do what he said he would do — What he promised he would do. I wasted so much of my life waiting for him.

      It’s a relief and a pleasure to be able to move forward and rebuild my life the way I want it to be. I’m a lot happier now than I was during those past few years with him. I feel stupid that I waited and got screwed over so badly. But at least I’m moving forward, which is a lot more that can probably be said about him. He’ll never get out of the rut he’s dug for himself, especially since he found a woman who is apparently satisfied to live in it with him.

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